Parthenon- Alycia's suite
Black Widow said:
"I can't fucking believe this. You aren't even upset about it. Did everyone start taking Zyprexa while I was gone? Because you bitches are all super fucking chill."
Why is it so hard to believe that people DO change and PROGRESS as they LEARN and GROW?
:: She said with laughter in her tone::
Haleigh said:
(Sarcastically) "WELL, I should have fucked him then, I didn't realize you were so cool with it."
Hardly that. I simply gave Cameron more credit than I did you. I EXPECTED YOU to revert to impulse driven fuckery and deep down...Cameron did too. He was just determined to proove ME wrong, but for ME, there was no prize in it. I have trust and respect for him. HE doesnt squander those GIFTS, like YOU do.
Haleigh said:
"Oh, Alycia, you're so insightful! Won't you please tell me more about myself?"
Why deprive Karen of ANOTHER opportunity to try to CRACK your demented ego? Although I'm sure even SHE would have any number of other things she'd rather do than revisit a therapy session with YOU.
Haleigh said:
"At least I was TRYING to do something! You have just given up! I see it in your face, in all your faces. You don't think this can be fixed, or at least it isn't your problem, so you're giving Delilah a reach-around and pushing her to get over it-- and that's making HER WORSE!"
NO. We acknowledged our LIMITATIONS and that we FAILED, though NOT for a lack of trying. We're not gods and goddesses, none of us has the power to do WHATEVER we want.
There was NOTHING we could do, short of standing back and letting her have her way and DIE, leaving that baby ORPHANED in a world no child should have to face alone.
We've taken SOLACE in knowing that Alexia is SAFE in the care of Ororo and we're holding on to HOPE that ORORO will come through, as she has MANY times in the past.
Haleigh said:
"Yeah, you are a fucking FOOL!
::Alycia lifted her eyebrows and smirked, nodding her head and speaking rather calmly::
No less than you.
Haleigh said:
You act like we used to braid each other's hair and have sleep overs, but if we were ever even CLOSE to being friends, I didn't know about it, so stop acting like I let you down or broke a pinky-swear or something, because we worked together when we had to and I wanted to help you over your 'only human' crutch-cop out because it was better for the big picture as far as team business, but that was about it. And where ever it was that you got this stupid idea that I'm some kind of person remotely in touch with the concept of a 'decent human being'? That's your fucking bad, because I've been pretty fucking consistently deranged this whole time.
:: She titled her head as she gazed at Haleigh, yawning and stretching::
This is quite efficient. Letting YOU expend all of this energy trying to be what I already know you are...a nasty, souless BITCH, while I sit back and let you CONFIRM the VERY THING I said to Cameron!
Listen, I am NOT under any illusions about our past. In fact, I'm remembering that QUITE WELL. You WERE the one who helped me come around and let go of that "only human" reflex. I'll ALWAYS credit you for that. I'm not embarrassed OR ashamed to say I needed THAT before I could even begin my healing and reinvention on Themyscira.
However, You've ALSO just confirmed what I said to Cameron. VERY LITTLE that you do, FOR ANYONE, is driven by pure motive. EVERYTHING about you is greed, avarice, narcissism and sociapathic. ONLY YOU could take pride in doing a genuinely GOOD DEED for an equally, PURELY SELFISH and TWISTED motive and think that as long as it benefits YOU, that makes your motives ok.
But that's just YOU to a tee.
NOTHING good and DECENT would EVER abide in that neutron waste dump you call a "HEART". But don't worry. We all make mistakes. Mine was believing that when you returned, you'd be interested in continuing on the path of PROGRESS you were the last time I saw you. I'm not ashamed that I thought of you as a friend. I can give anyone, who shows they deserve it, a chance.
Haleigh said:
"Oh, go fuck the horse you rode in on. I've made some huge sacrifices for this team, I've earned my place, and there isn't ONE ACTUAL SIX MEMBER that will call me an outcast."
Moves of strategy I'm sure. Since that's the way you started out and that's the way you conduct all of your business and personal affairs. Using everyone as a means to an end. Offering JUST ENOUGH of a pretense to pass under the radar, thinking that your "good works" and LESS THAN altruistic "sacrifices" will make up for...or EXCUSE your TOTALLY deficient character and personality?
Are you willing to take a poll on that? ESPECIALLY when they find out how you launched yourself onto Cameron like a cat in heat? MAYBE the reason why you think that is because, as usual, you live in your own self centered world, comfortable with your own STUNTED VIEW of things.
:: She waves her hand, replying in a wistful tone::
I imagine the ONLY reason ZACH can stomach you is because of his OWN mutant abilities. It would take NOTHING LESS than an act of super powers or supernatural to reign in your toxic ways.
You've been gone, for MONTHS. It doesnt matter WHERE OR WHY. You havent been here and that itself isn't necessarily a bad thing. But in that time, EVERYBODY has changed, MOVED ON. Sure there's no doubt that you have the respect and trust of this team in battle and you fascinate most of the men because of your "atypical" ways... But there's more to life than battle or espionage or sitting on obscene amounts of money and "intell" as you play spy games around the world.
There are people, with feelings, minds and HEARTS, EXPECTATIONS ...and part of being a REAL FRIEND is recognizing and rising to MEET those expectations. But that's NOT YOU, is it? It NEVER has been.
:: Her tone and presentation changed, as she began to put more FORCE into her withering verbal attack on Haleigh::
Everyone is supposed to kow tow to you and tolerate your bullshit. Well, keep thinking that's the order of the day and see what happens.
Haleigh said:
"Well I hope you're WRONG..... because I have very few tethers holding me to the human race..... Cameron used to be one, but he's 'grown' or some shit. Alison and Morgan are gone, Delilah is teetering on a mental precipice.... if Zach goes TOO.... and all that connects me to giving a fuck is AVA? My sister and I might just say 'fuck all this ethical bullshit' and join the Hellfire Club, because 'POWER WITHOUT CONSEQUENCE' is sounding better every day I look at YOUR judgmental face."
"tethers"...is that what they are to you? essentially another means to an end? it's THEIR responsibility to "anchor" you?
:: Alycia scoffs::
You're weak as HELL. I can't believe I didn't see this before!
EVERYBODY on this team knows who their ultimate source of strength and self reliance is. It comes from WITHIN. ONLY when a person has their shit together INTERNALLY can they possibly be of any benefit or any real, HEALTHY support to the ones around them. EVERYBODY ELSE, EVEN NICOLAS has come to understand that. Your SISTER too. She may not be overly fond of me and HERA knows the feeling is MUTUAL, but I'll give credit were credit's due.
She has a LIFE. She's found a companion AND she manages to do this all the way remaining CONNECTED to her team and NOT being bound by her PAST or using it as an excuse for SHITTY, CHILDISH behavior. She's not about to THROW ALL of that progress away just to pacify YOU.
Yes, You go to Malice and the Hellfire club. Perhaps THEN you'll finally understand what it is to be USED by someone the way you USE and throw away just about EVERYONE in your life and then be met with NOTHING but indifference when you wonder WHY you're nothing more than her PAWN and PLAYTHING, to be tossed away when you've out lived your usefullness.
:: Alycia's words were like arrows of VENOM, shooting at Haleigh in RAPID and LASER focused accuracy. The not of contempt she held for Haleigh had SWELLED into a SYMPHONY.::
Haleigh said:
She stood up abruptly, shaking her head at the insanity of even having this conversation. She thought she could come here and explain it and apologize and DO THE RIGHT FUCKING THING, the MATURE thing, without getting vilified? What WAS she thinking?
"So anyway, I just figured it was better to hear it from me than getting some kind of creepy twisted psycho stalker Sandman visit in your sleep from Malice..... and I didn't think Cameron should have to explain himself for MY impulsive reaction. You'll have to excuse me, I'm going back to 'my man's, one of the very few people who actually make an effort to make me feel marginally better about myself, even when I don't shine."
Malice is quite a convenient scapegoat for you, isn't she? But unlike you, SHE never PRETENDS or PLAYS at being anybody's FRIEND or someone to have any trust or expectation in. Having HER come crashing through the door would be REFRESHING, considering she's not a self loathing, life draining BITCH with the personality of a viper!
:: Alycia suddenly FELT the tone and force of her own voice and presentation as she realized just how much VENOM she was spitting out. She covered her mouth with her hands as she looked astonished for a brief momenet. Her feminum bracelets shmmered once more as she felt the conviction of ATHENA wash over her.::
Bright LADY! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?
:: IMMEDIATELY she was convicted in her heart. She was HARDLY doing this to HELP she was just satisfying her need for REVENGE and to what end? There is such a fine line between JUST criticism and even warranted condemnation, and being CRUEL to the point of destroying what flicker of hope a person has FOR growth and change. ::
:: There was even a CRACK of thunder outside that caught BOTH of them of guard as a night time thunderstorm was beginning::
Haleigh...WAIT A MINUTE.
:: Alycia commanded with the force of her amazonian voice and tone::
:: Ther was silence as Haleigh STOPPED , but didn't turn around just yet. Alycia stood up. She crossed her bracelets in front of her chest in an X pattern, the clinking sound got Haleigh's attention, it was a solemn gesture on Alycia's part. ::
I have gone too far.
Yes, you're wrong...but
SO AM I.
There is no honor, no justification in tearing someone down in a moment of weakness. Especially if there's no interest in helping the person to rebuild BETTER than before.
:: Alycia said without hesitation::
I'm SORRY for verbally assaulting you the way I did.
:: She said with a calm, even tone and displayed sincerity::
:: All the while, her PHONE on her nightstand in the master bedroom continued to glow and vibrate intermitently with an alert of a text from Cameron. She had yet to even be aware of this, but right now, She was addressing the situation at hand.::