The Ballroom
Zach's laughter was infectious - the way he grabbed his chest like he'd never heard anything funnier. She couldn't help but smile widely. They laughed together some more about her mother's antics with younger men. And it was nice. He asked her then about how it was clear she didn't want anything to do with modeling, and she was more open about it with him than she had ever been with anyone. She said the thing she knew deepest in her heart, that no matter what they did to her with makeup and clothes, that it would never be enough.
Her eyes flicked to Zach, who was now leaning against the window so he was facing her. He didn't make a polite comment like, "Of course it will! A little plastic surgery and you'll be brand new!" like she was used to hearing.
She blushed deep red, the way he was looking at her, and he seemed sincere. And she wanted to believe he was being truthful. After all, her mother wasn't there, so he wasn't just talking to her to get some connection or contract. Right? He leaned his back against the window so he could face the party, and he gestured for her to as well. She sighed, but did as he asked. He pointed out all the models in the room. Glamourous Ava, fierce Jackie, exuberant Vivica, elegant Morgaine, icy Ashley. They were like barbie dolls, each with perfect bodies, clothes, hair and makeup.
Oh, there it was, the "you're pretty on the inside, Zizi" comment... He was looking at her again, so she turned her sights away from the party.
She felt a tear tug at the corner of her eye as he said that. She had wanted for so long to hear that from someone - her mother especially. But somehow, hearing him say it, meant even more to her.
"Do you really think so?"
He took two glasses from a passing tray, and handed her one. She took it gratefully, taking a large gulp of the champagne. She'd always taken it for granted that she wasn't pretty enough. Everyone always referred to her as "plain". Her mother always talked to people about "what could they do about Elizabeth?"
He took a drink, clearly his past not a happy one, and she put a hand comfortingly on his arm.
"I'm sorry..."
She was a little bit stunned. She'd never considered using her mother's ambition to her advantage. She blinked, then took another drink.
"I never thought of it that way."
If she had the resources to do what she wanted on her own, she wouldn't have to do what her mother said, she could be out in the world, doing what she wanted.
"But everyone's always said how plain I am..."
Zach's laughter was infectious - the way he grabbed his chest like he'd never heard anything funnier. She couldn't help but smile widely. They laughed together some more about her mother's antics with younger men. And it was nice. He asked her then about how it was clear she didn't want anything to do with modeling, and she was more open about it with him than she had ever been with anyone. She said the thing she knew deepest in her heart, that no matter what they did to her with makeup and clothes, that it would never be enough.
“No, of course not,”
Her eyes flicked to Zach, who was now leaning against the window so he was facing her. He didn't make a polite comment like, "Of course it will! A little plastic surgery and you'll be brand new!" like she was used to hearing.
Zach said:“We can’t fix something that isn’t broken.”
She blushed deep red, the way he was looking at her, and he seemed sincere. And she wanted to believe he was being truthful. After all, her mother wasn't there, so he wasn't just talking to her to get some connection or contract. Right? He leaned his back against the window so he could face the party, and he gestured for her to as well. She sighed, but did as he asked. He pointed out all the models in the room. Glamourous Ava, fierce Jackie, exuberant Vivica, elegant Morgaine, icy Ashley. They were like barbie dolls, each with perfect bodies, clothes, hair and makeup.
Zach said:"And each one of them is beautiful, in their own unique way. Just as you are.”
Oh, there it was, the "you're pretty on the inside, Zizi" comment... He was looking at her again, so she turned her sights away from the party.
Zach said:“Well, lets be fair. They’re all more glamorous than you are. And much more confident, to be sure. But you aren’t unattractive. I mean, I’ve only been telling you that since I met you. So to me, hearing you say it’s ridiculous, or somehow visibly apparent that you can’t make it as a model.... no, I don’t think it’s your looks that are holding you back, Zizi.”
She felt a tear tug at the corner of her eye as he said that. She had wanted for so long to hear that from someone - her mother especially. But somehow, hearing him say it, meant even more to her.
"Do you really think so?"
Zach said:“If you think you aren’t appealing enough to be successful in this industry, that’s a self-fulfilling prophecy, just as if you thought you weren’t smart enough to organize your non-profit. It’s a limiting mindset, and self-sabotage.”
He took two glasses from a passing tray, and handed her one. She took it gratefully, taking a large gulp of the champagne. She'd always taken it for granted that she wasn't pretty enough. Everyone always referred to her as "plain". Her mother always talked to people about "what could they do about Elizabeth?"
Zach said:“If I were you I’d play the hand I was dealt, and take advantage. It’s got nothing to do with being grateful for your privilege, like it’s the magically blessed thing everyone else assumes it is. Gods know my own privilege was a curse, until Sally came along.”
He took a drink, clearly his past not a happy one, and she put a hand comfortingly on his arm.
"I'm sorry..."
Zach said:“But why not use what resources you have, to turn your life into something you can enjoy, or find rewarding? Imagine how much money and support you could drum up for your charity, if you had the fame, and the connections your mother is trying to make for you. Imagine using that platform for the greater good. Charities are always trying to rope in celebrity spokespeople to bring awareness to their cause. If you made an effort, made some friends here, you could bring lots of powerful people together, and really make a difference.”
She was a little bit stunned. She'd never considered using her mother's ambition to her advantage. She blinked, then took another drink.
"I never thought of it that way."
If she had the resources to do what she wanted on her own, she wouldn't have to do what her mother said, she could be out in the world, doing what she wanted.
"But everyone's always said how plain I am..."